my wishes :)

13 days until my birthday *sigh*

Why do I disappointed? Well, it's my second birthday that I passed at home after my arrival from that thingy boarding school. The first one was last year, and it's the worst one. I woke up and my parents didn't say anything to me. THEY FORGOT MY BIRTHDAY wth. Actually I heard when I tend-to-be-slept, my mom reminded my father when he was going to work. I also heard that my mom said 'happy birthday' to me, but heeey I WAS sleeping (well, actually tend-to-be) and my parents just went away. I stayed at home, watched the TV, inet-ing, and did my usual routinities. And I didn't go anywhere that day :( Since then, I really really hate my birthday.

Why?
I never being asked about what present do I want, or they have any initiative. They thought that I'm mature enough to be understand that birthday doesn't equal to present :( :( :( huaaaah. And the last present that I received was when I accepted as the big 8 and got some dispensation if I entered SMP Al-Izhar Pondok Labu. But after that, they moved me away to that boarding things :( I always envy my friends who always got new things without no special things or big things that she got, because I've ever heard from my friend that she told her mother everything about me, who won many competitions (sorry for being arrogant) bla bla. And her mother told her, if she could be like me, her mother would buy anything for her.

WHAAAAAT?
WHAT DID I RECEIVED FROM MY PARENTS? EVEN NO APPRECIATION, ENTHUSIASM, OR ANY 'CONGRATULATION' WORDS NEVER ARRIVED ON MY EARS. I won all the competitions for myself and school. I never have any aim to make my parents proud of me. I've done it, obviously. But they seems never be satisfied with what I've done. They still angry to me, tend to kill me, or any things that make me regretted that I was born to this world. I really really need anybody to be relied on, since I (almost) never believe my parents anymore.

STOOOP BEING SO TEARFUL. don't cry at me (gr banget sih). Well although I (almost) never received any birthday gift, it doesn't mean that I don't have any wishes right? Or it better being written with : it doesn't mean that I don't have any wishes since I have no hope on birthday, right? I really want to have part-time job, or I want to play options!!

Hmmm I interested to these things lately:

Canon EOS 500D. Suitable for beginners, and also quite suitable for pockets

Think that I'm a trend-follower? Nah-nah. My father was interested in photography and he ever had a manual DSLR camera. And photographer was my dream job when I was in Junior High.


This one is also so flirtatious

Sony Hard Disk Drive (HDD) - DCR-SR87E. 80 GB

Huaaaah I'm falling in love at the first sight with this :)

OR

Wakatobi Mini 963. Tablet PC and netbook in one pack

I really love Tablet PC since I saw an application on Facebook, Graffiti. It's an application that exhibit artworks that the users make, and most of them are extremely cool! When I saw at the coolest one, I just know that he/she made it with Tablet PC. And I want to have one to make me easier for doodling or scribbling things that I usually did, and then submit it. Oh yes, this one is made for schoolers and collegers.

I know, all of them are not cheap. But it's fair (in my opinion), for me who never got any birthday gifts since 5 years ago. OR I can't hope anyone will give me, but I tried to make some money until someday I can afford them!

Anyone can teach me how to play options or stocks?

rese banget

baca deh isi milis ini (taken from: milis NFBS):

Yth Pengurus Yayasan NFBS,

 

Kami mendapat keluhan dari anak kami di asrama ABC,sudah beberapa hari ini air mati sehingga ada air tetap[I kotor selesai madi badan jadi gatal2.

 

Dan juga karena anak kami kelas 10 C SMA,pada saat dilaksanakan UAn mereka tidak libur,sedangkan semua sekolah apabila UAn dilaksanakan selalu kelas dibawahnya libur

 

Jadi dengan kebersamaan air mati dan UAN barangkali bisa usu untuk dapat dilburkan dulu.

 

Demikian disampaikan terima kasih,dan mohon maaf bila kurang berkenan.

 

Wassalam Wr Wb,

oke, masalah air mati emang habis perkara. emang mau digimanain lagi? tapi kalo masalah libur, IH SEBEL BANGET itu bapak-bapak kayaknya ngebet banget anaknya pengen libur. emangnya gg boros bensin? mending kalo anyer-cilegon coba anyer-malaysia?? *sabar deenz, orangtua anak baru* dan jangan ngurusin kepentingan bapak aja dong, kalo bapak pengen anaknya libur, kenapa gg dijemput aja anaknya sekalian? 

haaaah. kadang-kadang yg kayak gini (tumben"nya) bikin gue emosi. harusnya sekalian aja tu bapak protes gara" idul adha, nyepi, natal dan hari libur nasional (beside idul fitri) gg libur. apalagi perkaranya itu hari libur nasional, dan harusnya bapak itu lebih bisa memberikan argumen yg lebih meyakinkan dong.. masa malah memperjuangkan hari libur 'spesial' buat anak SMA. kalo dipikir-pikir malu dong.. anak SMP aja seinget dan sepengetahuan gue pas gue UN atopun gue gg libur karena kelas 3 UN, gada yg protes. padahal secara umur, anak SMP lebih muda dari anak SMA, tapi kok lebih legowo anak SMPnya. huuh :(

bagi oknum yg tidaksayasebutkannamanya, maaf kalo tiba" menemukan blog ini. saya hanya menyampaikan aspirasi saya yg saya pikir tidak layak dan tidak mengenakkan bagi banyak orang untuk membaca balasan surat elektronik bapak. Sekian, WWW.

Dina Rahmatika

alumni SMPI NFBS angkatan 7

HB Rustam!

2nd mid-term exam = IGCSE is almost here! >.<

This weekend.. it's a long weekend actually. Because on Monday, we have the Birth of Prophet Muhammad (p.m.b.u.h), and it's included in national holy-days (^.^). And the day after is the MASSAL SLAUGHTERING *it's kinda exaggerating. haha :)*. No, it's the first day of 2nd semester mid-term test! Okay, let's take a look at the schedule

Day 1 ESL Listening + Religion (ESL listening, is my main problem. Religion? The teacher didn't teach anything to us, just ask to read the book. hahaha)

Day 2 Biology Paper 1 & 3 (noooo...! biology is one of my 'beloved' subject)

Day 3 Chemistry Paper 2 & 4 (it's difficult enough, but somehow I love it :D)

Day 4 Mathematics Paper 2 & 4 (quite easy.. but I have some problems in understanding several materials -________-)

Day 5 Physics Paper 2 & 4 (I DON'T UNDERSTAND RADIOACTIVITY AT ALL!)

Day 6 ESL Reading-Writing & Speaking (First, I have limited vocabs. Second, I have minim verbal ability -____-)

Day 7 Geography & P.E. (What the heck P.E. theoritical exam are held for?)

Day 8 Economy & Bahasa (need some practise, and I should complete my notes ASAP)

oh yeah, I SHOULD REALLY STUDY HARD to achieve the best. And I tried to increase my average report score, so my father will let me join LKS.

What is LKS?

LKS stands for Latihan Kepemimpinan Siswa (Student Leadership Training). It's the Student Council program to recruit the new Student Council governers, or the 'bosses' of each subsi. First, students who interested were given the form, then the senior make some appointment to interview the pre-LKS participant. Then, it's the backstage (Student Council)'s job to filtrate those who have talent or qualified students to join LKS.

Alright, back to the topic..

Beside fixing my grades, I also want to increase my class rank. On the 1st semester, I was in the 8th position. It's quite good, but I'm not satisfied enough. I read the rank, and several people that I remember were:

1st Ichi

2nd Ardi

3rd Cindy

4th the-one-that-I-forgot

5th the-other-that-I-also-forgot

6th PW

7th Ryan

8th Moi!

9th Naufal

10th Khalda (if I'm not mistaken)

waaw. It's kinda hard to obtain higher rank, as I remember that those guys above me are totally intelligent.

Okay guys. I wanna apologize to you if I have mistakes, because I'm afraid if one of you still angry with me, my way to success will be blocked. Okaaay? And also pray a lot for me:

1. For the midtest's success

2. For the approval of LKS

3. For the IGCSE exam success (straight A* amiiin!)

(PS: I'm not angry with DDA anymore; for those who still curious. I'm not a person who love to keep the angry; I'm just forgot it and let it flew.. hahaha :p I felt sorry to DDA. Maybe at that time, 'dia' have some problems that I don't know. I'm so sorry DDA -______-)

hidup menghisap! (a.k.a life sucks!)

disclaimer judul posting: Ardi (hahaha)

"Kenapa orang dewasa makin umurnya nambah, bukannya makin dewasa, tapi makin kekanakan?"

Hal ini baru gue temuin beberapa bulan akhir ini, di mana nyokap gue kayaknya udah angkat tangan sama semua kelakuan gue yg 'tak terduga' yg gue lakukan di rumah, mengingat gue SMP di boarding, bukan di sekolah full day. Mungkin dia gg menduga kalo ternyata gue kayak gini (jangan mikir aneh-aneh. I'm still a good girl though).

Hmm gimana gue bisa menyimpulkan hal itu? Gue menyimak tingkah laku bokap nyokap gue dengan baik sekali. Gimana nggak? Gue tinggal bertiga sama mereka; ditambah kakak angkat gue satu orang.

Dari hasil pengamatan gue, ada beberapa pernyataan yg mendukung hipotesis tersebut (waw jadi formal! -apacb-)
1. Seneng banget nyuruh orang buat ngambilin sesuatu, padahal jarak dia ke benda tsb lebih deket dari jarak orang yg disuruh ke benda tsb.
2. Kalo bangun tidur suka ngomel-ngomel, sampe kena imbas ke orang sekitarnya, dan akhirnya orang tersebut kabur dari rumah.
3. Nggak mau ngalah, terutama sama anak sendiri. Sedikitpun.
4. LEBAY. Banget. Lebaynya bukan dalem bentuk aksi atopun perkataan, tapi lebih daripada itu. Lebaynya 'terutama' dalem hal menduga-duga, kayak "Kenapa ni hape kok error terus?" trus dia pasti jawab "Iya nih, setannya mau halang"in ak buat gini gini bla bla..". Padahal function hape tersebut agak di 'miring'kan, dan tidak diperlakukan sebagaimana mestinya (asyik deeeh)

See? Kadang-kadang gue suka gg percaya kalo gue bisa tumbuh dgn lingkungan keliarga kayak gini. Dan terserah apa opini kalian tentang gue yg gg bisa 'hidup normal' layaknya remaja seusia gue. Yang perlu gue tekankan, ini perilaku gg sehat sama sekali. Dan gara-gara ini, gue bener-bener pengen jadi housewife. haaah :(

Punya ide untuk mengatasi orang seperti ini?

mencoba tuk bersabar.. masih adakah sabarku untuknya?

deenz sediiiiih banget..
baru pertama kali deenz ngerasain yg namanya bener-bener gloomy di sekolah.
padahal asal kalian tau, yg namanya hidup gue 99% sekolah, 1% rumah. jadi kalo di sekolah gue lebay, ato gue happy, menggila, dan semacemnya yg menurut kalian "apaan sih ni orang? lebay, girang gg jelas, dsb. gausa temenan sama dia deh." maklumin yaa. soalnya cuma di sekolah tempat gue bener-bener seneng, tempat gue punya temen (yeah, my friends at home are only laptop -not mine-, hp, ipod, and my bedroom), tempat gue bisa ngomong (gue hampir gg pernah ngomong sama bonyok. kadang-kadang gue iri sama orang yg bisa cerita, at least ngobrol-ngobrol sama bonyoknya, kayak orang yg bakal gue ceritain sekarang.) dan ya, semangat sekolah gue sekarang bener-bener down gara-gara orang satu ini. (buat sang terdakwa yg baca, please ngertiin keabnormalan gue.)

oke, sang terdakwa kita simbolkan dengan nama DDA. hmm.. dia koleris, tipe pemimpin. kalo diliat secara keseluruhan, dan walopun lo kenal dia bentar aja, lo gg bakal nyangka kalo dia bikin gue kayak gini (serasa apaan aja sih). orangnya bener-bener friendly, ramah, pinter, cakep? kalo menurut kacamata umum bisa dibilang cakep. tapi gara-gara hal ini, gue berubah persepsi tentang dia. and now, let the story begins..

senin, 2 maret 2009
Hari ini ada upacara. Seperti biasa, gue dan beberapa sahabat gue langsung ke lapangan. Upacara berjalan seperti biasa. Jam-jam sekolahpun selanjutnya juga berjalan lancar, bisa dibilang menyenangkan. Apalagi dengan kehadiran 'dua kombi abadi' yg duduk di belakang gue. Awalnya gue seneng, soalnya bisa dibilang mereka salah satu sebab gue betah di sekolah. Dan hari ini bisa dibilang (mungkin menurut kacamata orang-orang) adalah klimaksnya kelebayan gue. Gue jatoh dari kursi cuma buat ngambil spidol yg jatoh di bawah meja, dan akhirnya salah satu dari kombi itu ngambilin buat gue (makasih banyak yaa!). Dan pas mau istirahat, gue gg sengaja ngejepit lengan kombi yg satu lagi. Yaudah, gue feel bad sama dia :( Abis istirahat sih damai-damai aja. Pas istirahat solat kayaknya udah mulai-mulai dia 'sensi' ke gue. Pas gue naik tangga ke kelas, dia juga turun tangga buat solat. Dan dia gg nyapa gue. Mungkin kalian mikir, apaan sih, nyapa doang diperhatiin. Tapi buat orang kayak dia, itu hal yg aneh! (mengingat dia orang yg ramah). Udah lah, cuma sekali ini. Paling nanti baik lagi, pikir gue. Istirahat kedua, awal-awalnya biasa aja. Dia cerita-cerita, dan gue mendengarkan dgn baik (i'm a good listener, a rare hobby). Gue appreciate dgn ceritanya.

Nah, puncak kekesalan gue muncul pas pelajaran terakhir, yaitu math. Chairmate gue kehilangan uang yg cukup besar, dan gue pengen pinjemin uang gue ke dia, tapi dia gg mau terima. Nah, si DDA ini bercanda-candain lah duit gue itu. Trus gue dengan penuh kelebayan bilang, kalo uang punya nyawa, dia pasti nangis. Pas ilang dia dicari-cari, pas ketemu gg diakui (iya lah, orang itu duit gue). Abis itu, kayaknya si DDA males main sama gue, dan dia ngelempar duit gue yg ditangannya. Bagus banget. Udah gitu, gue gloomy, sampe diliatin sama kombi yg baik hati itu :) Yg bikin gue tambah tersinggung, pas dia balikin pensil yg dia pinjem, dia juga ngasih bolpen-yg-gue-gg-tau-itu-punya-siapa. Dia nyuruh gue buat nyimpen bolpen itu. Dan gue nolak, takutnya kalo gue pinjem, ntar kelupaan dan jatohnya ghosob (ngambil barang milik orang lain tanpa izin), dan gue bilang buat taro aja bolpen itu di atas meja. Tapi dia malah maksa (dengan nada agak membentak), bilang "apa susahnya sih nyimpen bolpen doang?" JLEB! Itu bener-bener nusuk. Nada ngomongnya gg enak, omongannya dalem pula. Padahal kita sama-sama lagi puasa. Yaudah gue diemin aja, dengan hati yg bener-bener (mungkin) gg bisa maafin si DDA.

Gue bener-bener udah capek buat sabar. Gue sebisa mungkin dengerin cerita orang, sampe orang yg kayak mike (maaf yaa mike) juga gue dengerin. Kenapa? Karena gue tau banget rasanya gg didengerin sama orang dan itu bener-bener pahit. Kalo kayak gitu, gue langsung diem, gg berani buat ngomong apa-apa lagi. Lagian buat apa? Kita gg didengerin kok maksa buat cerita.

moving on..

me again (iya lah.. kalo gg gue, who else? -__________-)!
I want to post this posting as soon as possible; reminding that I face this problem EVERYDAY.

My main problem is.. I'm haunted with my parents' terror that I must transfer to my 'spare' high school, where I spent my junior high time. And I know that they have tried any ways, any arguments, or any mistakes either from me or smandel itself. Well, I chose smandel for my high school because I want to face new circumstances, new environment, new friends (even though I also met some of my elementary and junior high buddies), new challenges and so on. But every day, if I make a single mistake such as I'm easily to be forgotten, my mother always said "You lack of reading Holy Qur'an everyday. Don't NF always used to read 4 pages of Holy Qur'an everyday? You better go back there."

OH MY GOD IT'S KINDA WORST, SILLY SENTENCE THAT I'VE EVER HEARD. No, I'm not blaming the routinities to read Holy Qur'an everyday. But I blamed that she always blame every mistakes that I've done because of that. Well human never escaped from mistakes right? And her biggest mistake is she always do in the name of Qur'an, and also she never realised herself either. That's what I don't like hate from her. She told me these and that, but she never pay attention to herself. She read Qur'an everyday, doesn't do anything in her spare time excep for these activity, but never applicated it in her daily life. Such as in Surah an-Nur verse 31

24:31 And say to the believing women that they lower their gaze and restrain their sexual passions and do not display their adornment except what appears thereof. And let them wear their head-coverings over their bosoms. And they should not display their adornment except to their husbands or their fathers, or the fathers of their husbands, or their sons, or the sons of their husbands, or their brothers, or their brothers’ sons, or their sisters’ sons, or their women, or those whom their right hands possess, or guileless male servants, or the children who know not women’s nakedness. And let them not strike their feet so that the adornment that they hide may be known. And turn to Allah all, O believers, so that you may be successful.

Surat An-Nur: 30-31

"Katakanlah kepada orang-orang laki-laki yang beriman "Hendaklah mereka menahan pandangannya, dan memelihara kemaluannya; yang demikian itu adalah lebih suci bagi mereka, sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui, apa yang mereka perbuat." "Katakanlah kepada wanita yang beriman :"Hendaklah mereka menahan pandangannya dan memelihara kemaluannya, kecuali yang (biasa) nampak dari padanya. Dan hendaklah mereka menutupkan kain kudung ke dadanya dan janganlah menampakkan perhiasannya, kecuali kepada suami mereka, atau ayah mereka, atau ayah suami mereka, atau putera-putera mereka, putera-putera suami mereka, atau saudara-saudara laki-laki mereka, putera-putera saudara laki-laki mereka, atau putera-putera saudara perempuan mereka, atau wanita-wanita Islam, atau budak-budak yang mereka miliki, atau pelayan-pelayan laki-laki yang tidak mempunyai keinginan (terhadap wanita), atau anak-anak yang belum mengerti tentang aurat wanita. Dan janganlah mereka meukulkan kakinya agar diketahui perhiasan yang mereka sembunyikan. Dan bertaubatlah kamu sekalian kepada Allah, hai orang-orang yang beriman supaya kamu beruntung."

See? She almost never do these order, except for several people like my Qur'an recite tutors. Especially for those boldies.

I always tried to be istiqomah, to be myself as I used to be in NF. But my parents always see me in different way. Well, maybe because I'm so introverted. I've ever didn't call my parents in 2 months because I don't have any duties or importance to be talked to my parents. I'm not kinda cry baby or mommy's kid that can tell everything about how's school, or your crush, etc. I'm kinda cool, doesn't like to tell anybody about my problems. I'd like to keep it, then forgot it. And because of my school was a boarding school, they don't know anything about my activities there. They don't know that I liked to hide my earphone under my veil and hear mp3 along the school time. They don't know that I liked to forgot easily, spoke wrongly. So, if I had that 'horrible' habits in my junior high, who should be blamed here?

But after I enjoy 7-month-high-school-life, I found that my friends at smandel are much more religious than some of my junior high friends. Without experiencing boarding school life, they know that they have to cover their adornment perfectly (I've ever being told to lower my veil by my friend). They know that they should pray dhuha everyday. Moreover and the most shocking, they know some religion knowledges than I never know! And when I met some of my junior high buddies, some of them have took off their veils, or make it shorter than she wore in past. But not all of them are bad either (but I rarely find my buddies that still istiqomah with those long veil, skirt, and socks).

So, from my experience, should I transfer school? Leave some comments. Thank you for reading my horrible scribbles, but that's what I hold on lately.