Current affair

It seems that I haven't told about current conditions - money, career, love life (is it a blog or a fortune-teller web?) because it seems that I put my opinion more and I think this blog is more likely become more religious than before because of it, hehe.

My life is becoming a nightmare lately. I think too many problems in one time:
1. A Level exam is getting closer, about one month from now. I'm too lazy to study, whereas I take four subjects and there is a day when I take three papers directly! I also got some bad scores here and there, and I need extra learning time.

2 . I also take part in Rohis' big event, 8 MISSION (8 Islamic Skills Competitions) as a secretary. Luckily, this job is only get the chaotic moments before and after the event is over. But apparently, we need extra work to earn money to support this event, and all Rohis activists become the fund-raising team, which means I have to earn money too -___-.

3. Beside that, I'm presiding over an event, which is Blood Donor (Donor Darah) and I can't leave that because my co-partner is also busy with her job, and the event is going to be held on the same day as 8 MISSION, so we get more blood donors than last year (which we only get fifteen donors :'( ) and I haven't make the appointment, and so on and on.

Huaaaaah I'm suffocating. I become more vulnerable lately. It's just my school life problem. Haven't mentioned my love life problem (which I've silently mentioned on my previous post), my usual home problem - alone. I really hate to be alone. This is a problem which won't end, because this is my risk of being in a full-time school. Nobody will take care of a full-time high schooler like they care about a full-time elementary schooler.

I miss my childhood badly. I miss how my angel was always there for me *crying* (Not to mention that I was so spoiled, but I need her in some certain condition, like accompanying when I was cooking. Not all the time like all babysitters did). I miss how she treated me like the-kids-say-it's-their-mother's, because as long as I can remember, my own mother never treated me that way. I remember how hard I cried when she left me. Alone, and I cried about four consequent night. She's more than just a perfect mother replacement.

Past will always be past. God won't let the time reversed no matter how hard we cried. Because past is the best guidance if you want to learn how to face life.