Current affair

It seems that I haven't told about current conditions - money, career, love life (is it a blog or a fortune-teller web?) because it seems that I put my opinion more and I think this blog is more likely become more religious than before because of it, hehe.

My life is becoming a nightmare lately. I think too many problems in one time:
1. A Level exam is getting closer, about one month from now. I'm too lazy to study, whereas I take four subjects and there is a day when I take three papers directly! I also got some bad scores here and there, and I need extra learning time.

2 . I also take part in Rohis' big event, 8 MISSION (8 Islamic Skills Competitions) as a secretary. Luckily, this job is only get the chaotic moments before and after the event is over. But apparently, we need extra work to earn money to support this event, and all Rohis activists become the fund-raising team, which means I have to earn money too -___-.

3. Beside that, I'm presiding over an event, which is Blood Donor (Donor Darah) and I can't leave that because my co-partner is also busy with her job, and the event is going to be held on the same day as 8 MISSION, so we get more blood donors than last year (which we only get fifteen donors :'( ) and I haven't make the appointment, and so on and on.

Huaaaaah I'm suffocating. I become more vulnerable lately. It's just my school life problem. Haven't mentioned my love life problem (which I've silently mentioned on my previous post), my usual home problem - alone. I really hate to be alone. This is a problem which won't end, because this is my risk of being in a full-time school. Nobody will take care of a full-time high schooler like they care about a full-time elementary schooler.

I miss my childhood badly. I miss how my angel was always there for me *crying* (Not to mention that I was so spoiled, but I need her in some certain condition, like accompanying when I was cooking. Not all the time like all babysitters did). I miss how she treated me like the-kids-say-it's-their-mother's, because as long as I can remember, my own mother never treated me that way. I remember how hard I cried when she left me. Alone, and I cried about four consequent night. She's more than just a perfect mother replacement.

Past will always be past. God won't let the time reversed no matter how hard we cried. Because past is the best guidance if you want to learn how to face life.

My recent favourite song

This song is taken from a famous TV series, gLee. Do you know? It's a story about a minority club called gLee club. This club gained some controversies during their resurrection, whereas this club had their glory back then - they won in National Competition. They had their ups and down and they handle it cleverly. Some people said that this TV show is similar to High School Musical, but in fact, THEY AREN'T SAME AT ALL. So many colours added into this show, so it won't feel too monotonous. I got so many screeching moments here and there, and two of their songs have ever made me cry all night long. But from all sixty three songs-approximately, this is my favourite song (along with my favourite scene all the time! ♥)

My Life Would Suck Without You
(original song by Kelly Clarkson)

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
What you said before
Like how much you wanted anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me and honestly
My life would suck without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for trying to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way I found out I'm nothing without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me and honestly
My life would suck without you

Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can't let you go
Oh yeah

Lalalalala...

'Cause we belong together now, yeah yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me and honestly
My life would suck without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me and honestly
My life would suck without you

Mengapa laki-laki dan perempuan gak boleh saling bersentuhan?

repost dari blognya Fina


niatnya mau ngambil dari blog orang lain, tapi sepertinya lebih tertarik nulis sendiri. oke mari kia bahas. sebenernya ini berdasarkan tanya dan mencari juga di om google. jadi intinya gini :

1. berjabat tangan antara laki-laki dan perempuan itu hanya diperbolehkan apabila tidak disertai dengan syahwat serta aman dari fitnah. Apabila dikhawatirkan terjadi fitnah terhadap salah satunya, atau disertai syahwat dan taladzdzudz (berlezat-lezat) dari salah satunya (apalagi keduanya), maka keharamannya berjabat tangan tidak diragukan lagi. (taken from : KafeMuslimah.com) -- dan kita gatau kan, pada saat kita bersentuhan itu ada rangsangan atau tidak. Maka dari itu, daripada sotoy mendingan gausah sekalian.

2. bisa menimbulkan fitnah dan ya bisa merangsang si lawan jenis juga (pria), katanya, pria lebih mudah terangsang daripada wanita, jadi kalau kita pegang-pegangan bisa menimbulkan yang nggak-nggak yang kita nggak mau, dan bisa jadi malah lebih fatal dari yang kita bayangkan. who knows ?

3. lagipula siapa yang mau sih 'dipegang-pegang' gitu sama laki-laki. kayak apaan aja.

oke itu ya hasil searching sana sini, intinya ya ...

Allah ngasih kita larangan ini itu, pasti ada alasan dan hikmahnya, untuk menjaga kesucian juga pastinya, dan menjaga kaum hawa dari perbuatan yang tidak senonoh, dan ya tadi itu seperti di point 2. dan terakhir jadi the conclusion is ya ambil kesimpulan masing masing aja, yang penting udah dikasih liat pandangan-pandangannya . oke oke ? hahaha

Cinta = Pacaran? Gak selalu

Cinta lagi, cinta lagi. Umur segini emang lagi hot-hotnya ngomongin cinta. Sama kayak blognya Rani sama Putri, gue ikut-ikutan latah ngomong cinta, hehe. Apakah karena banyak orang yg baru jadiankah akhir-akhir ini? Atau karena terlalu banyak sumpah-akan-menembak, rencana menembak, dan lain-lain? Entahlah, tapi ini gak akan nyambung dengan apa yang akan gue bahas.

Paradigma mengatakan, cinta harus (dan kebanyakan) berakhir dengan pacaran. Banyak orang yang mengatasnamakan cinta di atas segala sesuatunya. Ada kasus di mana seorang gadis-sebut saja Maimunah- merasa dirugikan oleh pacarnya-sebut saja Maimun. Tapi apa daya, cinta bertindak, keadilanpun kalah. Atas nama cinta, Maimunah mengerjakan apa saja untuk Maimun, demi mempertahankan suatu jalinan kasih yang tidak resmi. Gak ada tuh yang mananya 'Surat Izin Pacaran' atau 'Akte Pacaran'..gak ada tho? Maka dari itu, banyak kekerasan yang terjadi di antara dua manusia yang dimabuk cinta. Sang pria merayu, wanitapun terayu.

Buat gue, cinta gak harus berakhir dengan pacaran. (Oke, mungkin ada beberapa orang akan menyangsikan 'Apa bedanya status pacaran maupun orang-yang-dekat-tapi-seperti-pacaran a.k.a HTS ?' Pacaran di sini masuk ke dalam dua itu) Kenapa? Karena pacaran tidak selamanya membawa manfaat. Banyak hati yang tersakiti, banyak uang yang terhamburkan..semua karena sebuah status yang mengombang ambing. Coba kalo dipikir-pikir, pernah gak ada cewek yang minta balik semua perasaannya kepada si mantan? Nggak kan? Mungkin kalian bilang gue bodoh, tapi bukankah itu yang seharusnya dilakukan agar hubungan itu 'putus-secara-resmi-dan-cowok-brengsek-itu-pergi-dari-hidup-gue'.(Mengingat gue orang yang gak pengen rugi sedikitpun) Selain itu, walaupun si cowok mengumbar janji 'Gak kok, gue gak bakal ngapa-ngapain cewek ini!'. Tapi, ujung-ujungnya 'ngapa-ngapain' juga tho? Melakukan hal di luar batas kewajaran hubungan antar gender, dan yang paling parah adalah, kalau terjadi hal-hal yang tidak diinginkan. Oke, mungkin ini alamiah dan, sekali lagi, memang umur segini sedang membara"nya. Tapi.. siapa yang bisa menjamin?

Oke, mungkin kalian bisa bilang gue sok suci-lah, atau apalah. Tapi beneran deh, gue juga remaja dan seorang cewek. Gue pernah (dan gampang) jatuh cinta. Gue juga pernah punya keinginan kayak gitu, atau bahkan pernah mengalami hal itu. Tapi...rasanya aneh aja. Beneran deh. Gue lebih memilih sohiban deket sama cowok daripada pacaran, trus putus. Trus jauhan. Gak asyik kan? Makanya, setiap mantan gebetan (lucu juga) gue, satu per satu mulai melempar hati gue satu per satu dan membuatnya pecah, gue udah kebal :) Hehehehe :D

Alasan kapoknya gue pacaranpun gara-gara arti suatu ayat di al-Qur'an: Wanita yang baik akan mendapat pria yang baik. Wanita yang baik ibarat berlian yang dikemas dan ada di dalam etalase. Ia terawat dengan baik, tidak terjamah, dan keindahannya akan terungkap jika ada 'pembeli' yang beruntung, yang membeli berlian tersebut dan menikmati keindahan berlian itu seorang diri. Asyik bukan? Menjadi berlian yang tercipta hanya untuk seorang pembeli? Memberikan semua rasa cinta dan kasih sayang secara utuh hanya kepada satu orang?

Jadi, untuk apa pacaran?

New Buddy!

I tried to use new application that I found in my brand new buddy, Sony Ericsson W960i and a Blogger application in it. I got my Goliath-my new buddy- because my old one had no shape. It has too many damages here and there. Well, hopefully I can use it in a long lasting period :)